As I was thinking about it, I came to the conclusion that there are really two ways that you can go about answering this question: 1) Answering it looking toward the past, where you're focused on changing how your life is now...or 2) Answering it in real time, where the things you'd choose to change are relevant to who you are (and what you want) now.
Really, though, answering it the first way doesn't make much sense, because trying to change the past is just plain idiotic, frankly. About a month ago, I wrote a letter of reminders to myself, and in it I wrote something along the lines of, "If you keep trying to go forward while looking back, you're only going to trip." Then again, answering it at all is pretty dumb because it's HARD to not be afraid of stuff. Sometimes, though, thinking about the stuff you'd stop being afraid of if you could is just the thing you need to get over. So I'll answer it the second way.
What would I do if I weren't afraid?
- I would raise my hand in class and say the things I think & answer questions.
- I would go up to the people who look cool and/or interesting to me and I would say hi/introduce myself.
- I would tell the boy I like that I like him, so then either something would happen or it wouldn't. And then I wouldn't be afraid of the latter.
- I would probably be charming and have stuff to say when people said stuff to me. (That's so important to me.)
- I would be able to actually DECIDE if I am where I want to be/if I want to move somewhere else...and then I would do it.
- I would travel to all of the places on my own and not be freaked out by getting lost or making little mistakes. I'd embrace them.
- I would write and play the guitar in public, not worrying about people thinking I sound bad or staring at me and I would be GREAT.
- And then...so much more.
What would you do if you weren't afraid? What are you afraid of?
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